Hey AZ..
Warm welcome to Sober Recovery.
There's a saying in AA...
A man takes a drink.. the drink takes a drink.. the drink takes the man.
When we've lost our choice around a substance.. then we pretty much have no life. And the people that love us get to experience that right along with us.
I echo Chy about frequenting the AA forums.. and even maybe get to a face to face meeting if extra support is needed...
I add my hoorah to " sobriety is good..."