Aww..hey thanks all. I updated my situation a tad on other thread. I had a fabulous session with a therapist this morning where essentially we talked about my daily need to blow off excess energy in a variety of ways. I know I have to commit to a morning routine of certain disciplines (both meditative and progressive muscle relaxation)...as well as get myself for workouts one way or another. He gave me some absolutely astounding food for thought regarding a variety of practices and disciplines...
He, like my previous therapist, do work of their own each and every morning in order to essentially center and "steele" themselves for the heavy emotional workload each day bring. Both worked on the "social services/community level" dealing with extremely heavy issues daily in addiction and domestic violence etc...
I would not have known this had I not queried him on it as something he said reminded me of my previous therapist..and the conversation took flight from there.
It dawned on me....good mental health is a result of sound, healthy disciplines.