Sending you plenty of hugs Nuu
sorry to hear you are having a rough time of it at the moment.
For me, my anger was something that really made me relapse. I now understand that it was a resentment-at the world, at others, at their behaviour, at their words, at their actions but ultimately the anger and resentment was within and at me. As time has passed I have learnt new ways of dealing with my anger when it arises. Yoga,meditation, taking time out, understanding what I can and cannot control about me and about others. it's hard at time but does help.
you are stronger than you realize and will get through this. please use all the resources available, including SR
Look after yourself and allow us to look after you too