nuu, I don't think I feel disappointed in someone when there's a slip or relapse. I worry. You've been through a lot of life. We have wobbles. The important thing to remember is not to go to the addictive behaviors as a self soothe move.
rational recovery and AVRT have helped me so much. AA is important, I think, for helping us rebuild our lives. RR and AVRT keep me from sliding back into the bottle of hell.
You've made a difference in thinking for me, helped me be willing to take a peak at some issues I've sat on. I am so glad you are here!
Love from Lenina