I usually find the answers through meditation. I know, sometimes it seems impossible to sit still and focus your mind on breathing. But try to do it at night before you go to bed. Even if it's only 5 minutes at first, it will help. Promise
Sometimes I meditate and I do the exercises from the book "Creative Visualization: Use the Power of Your Imagination to Create What You Want in Your Life " by S. Gawain. I think you would love it!
The answers will come my friend. Be kind to yourself ((hugs))