Originally Posted by
Nuudawn 
I didn't send out a shout out here...or make any calls to anyone..
Because well..I'd been thinking bout it a long time I think. I didn't want anyone or anything to stop me. I had entered self pity and helplessness and thinking my only way out of recovery obsession..was drinking....a long time ago.
Objectively I knew that was ridiculous...but not emotionally...
This really scares me on one hand because I know we all have it in us, this desire to crawl back into our shell and succumb to our demons. But on the other hand I see hope in the fact that we really really should reach out, post here, call someone even if we don't want to at the time.