what I will add is this: Rigorous honesty. That is the truth. All that really means to me is that I had to be honest that my drinking did a lot of damage to me. And that the only way I could prevent that from continuing was to quit drinking - for good. No steps, no stages of recovery or whatever. Just quit drinking. That's what I did. I was forced to go to AA. But I actually went with an open mind to give it a chance. I didn't last 3 months. I had the same thoughts as the OP. Regardless of the reasons I drank, or felt I had to, the bottom line was that I had to stop. Now, the only person, place or thing I can blame if I drink again is ME. No-one else. When I told some people at AA that my higher power was ME I thought they were gonna explode. I did by the way.
Being continually told that if I didn't get down on my knees and pray every day I would never 'make it,' so keep coming back until you get it. And that is also the truth.