Yes, ok, I do need therapy!
In my last thread,a few of you kindly suggested that it might be time for a little therapy. I had lots of support from people when the crisis first hit. Two plus years later, I am still in a huge jam and am much more tired, broke and alone in it all. I have tried so so hard!!!!!!! But lots of promising starts turned to dead ends.
And xah is steadily getting more selfish and removed from reality.
Plus I have this man in my life and I can't figure out sometimes if everything is going okay. I don't see him too often because of our schedules and that is a good thing because I want to keep things light and sweet. But recently I feel that I turn everything around in my head and I can't just chill and accept his gifts and effort and attention. Instead I am busy scanning for reasons to mistrust him. I don't know which end is up today!!!
Driving myself nuts!!!