confusedagain

Hello All,

I quit for almost 2 years and then slowly started drinking once a week again, no one but my wife and Son know I have been drinking as I don't drink around friends or any other family. I think my Brother might know as I have called him while I was drunk. I really don't know what comes over me I just somehow think I deserve to drink sometimes and then the next day like today I feel so bad and disgusted with myself. Today is day one of the rest of my life, couldn't go into work today because I feel just like crap.

When I quit before I read a book by Allan Carr and it sparked something in me that keeped me sober. I am going to start reading it again and read and post on these forums.

I just can't drink anymore my mental health and self asteam are in the bottom of the barrel at the moment. My Son came home yesterday and most likely the first thing he seen was me in bed passed out.

I really just hate alcohol now and have no idea why I drink. while like I said this is day one.

regards

Confusedagain