It really took alot to get where I am, but I knew it was stay clean or lose my freedom. But I knew the whole time I was using it had to come to an end at some point but I just couldnt see it. I really am a completly knew person and doing so good, have so many ambitions now, but this depression hit hard tonight, it's still there but I'm dealing with it. Tomorrows a new day and I'l most likly feel good again but I know the depression will hit again I just need to deal with it and get through it. I mean I know everyone mkes mistakes, but I just feel I made too many and hurt too many people but I cannot change what I did while using drugs all I can do is make sure I do my best not to hurt people in the future. But even though I know that the depression is still there.