Thanks for that honey. Ur doing so well. U have to tell yourself that when ur riding on those storms of depression. I think what makes us human beings unique is that even when people are right at rock bottom and feel they can't get any lower, they will always feel hope, even if its a faint and distant feeling. Hope that things will change, hope that they will change....
And things will change for you. You want to change or you wouldn't have looked for this place in the beginning. And that shows, to me, that you must know that deep down inside your an alright guy (apologies if your female) and that your worth saving, that you have potential, and don't want to self-destruct.
Kissy kisses xxx