So comforting to hear all these stories; these all could have been written by me they are all so spot on it's crazy..went NC with AM 11/19/14 still a daily struggle with guilt but I realize now that by merely talking to her on the phone daily I was just helping her in a small way limp thru her existence drunk and feel somewhat normal living thru me but at same time she was dragging me down with intermittent "digs" whenever she could get them in. So now I know I am doing what is best not only for me but her also. One day at a time. The world is still turning and I'm still here it's a good day
