Originally Posted by
am658 
I feel so bad because although my mum knew/knows I drank/drink alot, I don't think she's fully aware of the seriousness of alcoholism. Or certainly, the severity of my situation. My dad was the same as me, although he drank 1/2 bottle of vodka and half a bottle of red wine every night for 30+ years. This indirectly led to their divorce.
My dad now seems to be able to control his drinking to several glasses of wine per night! Wish I could know when to stop lol.
All that matters is that you realize how serious your alcoholism is. Because you are the only one that can do something about it. Your father's drinking is his issue and for all you know he's drinking more in secret - but even if he's not it doesn't really have any relevance to you. You need to do whatever it takes to control YOUR alcoholism. Have you considered local support of any kind (AA/NA, Counseling, Rehab, etc.? )