Thanks for the replies everyone - having this forum is such a help
I feel so bad because although my mum knew/knows I drank/drink alot, I don't think she's fully aware of the seriousness of alcoholism. Or certainly, the severity of my situation. My dad was the same as me, although he drank 1/2 bottle of vodka and half a bottle of red wine every night for 30+ years. This indirectly led to their divorce.
My dad now seems to be able to control his drinking to several glasses of wine per night! Wish I could know when to stop lol.
I feel bad that I relapsed because for the past 3 weeks now, I've had nagging epigastric pain (I was dx with Moderate Gastritis in August) and they think it's progressed to severe gastritis/stomach ulcers. Of course, when I was in A&E, I promised my mum I would stop the drinking as I thought I had acute pancreatitis (fatal in 5% of cases).
But I've broken that promise. :'(
She also drinks several glasses of wine per night... FML
Also, does anyone have any advice on also quitting smoking whilst quitting alcohol? Or should I leave the cigarettes until I'm off the booze?