Hey am,
Kicking this addiction hard as hell. If you relapse it's important to pick yourself up and keep going. Do not give up on your desire to be sober. You can do it. Try to learn from this relapse and how you can prevent another one. For example try to recognize that very moment when you start to think a drink might be a good idea. Be aware of it. The AV is cunning and will over take you quickly in the beginning but you can fight it if you have a good plan of action that you initiate right away. It could be something as simple as posting on SR. Many of us will be happy to talk you through how to battle those awful cravings or at least distract you till they pass.
Best of luck. You can do this.