6 days clean from opiates, first day totally clean, I've recommitted that my recovery is something that needs to be absolute, no mind altering substances, period. I'm an utter drug pig and it needs to stop for my life to progress in any meaningful way! I've had enough of this, really truly, had enough of the pain and suffering that my behavior has been causing my family, friends & myself. Whatever pain lies in sobriety, bring it on, because it can't compare to this.
I need to feel connected to the universe again, I want to feel who I am, I want to see my old school mates who think I'm a lost cause, smile and give them a wink, and tell them I'm doing well - and actually mean it!!!
My ankle has healed enough for me to be back in the gym, back on the bike, back working, so enough self-pity, no more sitting around thinking recovery is gonna come to me, i'm going out there and I'm gonna earn my sobriety. Watch this space.