Pick yourself up Alynn and try again. 89 days is NOTHING to frown about! That's great and shows you got what it takes.
Every time I relapsed before I DIDNT THINK before picking up....just like you said above. I have learned I own the AV and with some determination AND will power you can shut him down. Also, it feels SOOO good when ya make it over the hump sober.
Jump back on today!!! YOU GOT THIS!