If I am not clean that day, I won't go to a meeting. I just feel its not right to be high in a room full of people that are trying to stay clean. I know they say you can go if you're high, just don't speak, but I don't think so. I also don't think its right to try to find a using buddy at a recovery meeting! I had someone walk up to me at an AA meeting and ask if I had anything or knew of anyone that had anything, I was like "no", and that was it, I didn't bother talking to that person after that. I was clean at that time in my life, and I was there to get away from the dealers! Crazy world!
jaz