Hi Changel, and thanks for the post.
Same thing happened to me with NA beer and it scared the heck out of me. For the first few months of my sobriety, I would have an NA beer when out or have a few in the back of the fridge for cooking chili or whatever. One night I got myself worked up about something at work and went home and (mindlessly) opened the fridge and grabbed an NA beer. Then the other, then the last. After awhile, I got up and went into the garage and found myself standing there, confused about how/why I got there.
To look for the rest of the case of beer, of course.
There was none as I had only bought a six-pack but the fact that I slammed them and then, without even thinking, went on autopilot to go seek out some more showed me exactly what it showed you. I am an addict and even the presence/taste of "near beer" had me right back in the same behavior pattern as I had when I was drinking real beer and wine.
No thanks. I haven't touched it since then and now, actually, I find the smell rather revolting. But, yes, it proved something to me beyond a doubt: I am an addict through and through and there is absolutely no reason in the world to tempt fate when it comes to my sobriety.
Thanks for the reminder with this post, too
