Hi tonib,
My automatic default when the stress got intense at work was to head to the liquor store, get a half pint, put it in my laptop bag, and drink at work to help 'deal with the stress'. Problem was, I couldn't always control how many times I went back to get another half pint.
My solution - I hit the skids real bad, and finally gave up on trying to fix myself. I made a commitment to really work the AA 12 Steps with my sponsor. It worked. I am now 1 year Sober and FREE...and I know you can be too.
Also, early in the process, my sponsor had me type the 3rd Step Prayer in my phone, and repeat it as often as necessary.
I worked it like doing 99 Bottles of God on the Wall.
3rd Step Prayer
God, I offer myself to You--to build with me and to do with me according to Your will.* Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better do Your will.* Take away my difficulties, that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of Your Power, Your Love, and Your Way of Life.* May I do Your will always! (Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 63)
RDBplus3....Sober & FREE