Okay I think I can go then , if I dont have to come sober. Do you think they will think I am pathetic then? Poor girl, she cant even come to a meeting without being high on something. I wish I had someone to go with. I wish I could just become invisible and then go in, have a seat and listen, without anyone seeing me. Am I supposed to introduce me or anything? And is there any use of going to a meeting if I am not sober? Many stupid questions here, I know. I am just kinda desperate. And I am scared of NA... I dont understand the spiritual part..I am not a spiritual person.
Oh, and I took some ritalin now. I didnt really even want them, but I am afraid what would happen if I dont.