awwww sweetie, welcome to SR. i'm so sorry for what brought you here, but glad in your confusion you found us.
take some time and read around, especially the stickies at the top of this forum. you have a lot on your plate but your primary concern has to be you and the baby. make sure to get rest, try not to solve all your problems TODAY. no matter what your BF does you will have to take care of you......