You may not feel this way now, but I hear a great change in perspective on your part. We parents have to get to our bottom, too, and realize when we have done all we can do and feel okay in our hearts with letting our addict child face what they alone have to face.
I hope you can do something special with your other son this weekend, and that you are able to relax a bit despite your addict son.
Take care, and keep us posted. You are making progress, even though it may not feel that way now. We can hear it in your words
