jjj111--sending prayers and care to you. i am in early recovery and struggling to maintain my gratitude with the issues I am facing financially and also some flashbacks to other times during this time of year when things were hard. it has been a hard time of year for me since my 3 month old son passed away 24 years ago...and this year it is worse due to the fact that I am working my recovery program and feeling very bad about the anxiety and fear I am having--my family does not understand...and I am working to do what I can...praying and asking for help and order...etc. I wish you a good day.