They will welcome you back with open arms, you know that, right? No one will be disappointed. This is your journey and no one else's. Honestly, they are all worried about their own lives. I found I am not that important.
You've asked God for help. Now believe that it has been granted.
((hugs)) - I was sober for 18 years and picked up again. Now at nine months. You can do this. Be here now.