I just don't post much, but I visit occasionally and read other ppls posts and struggles. I have been to AA a lot of times. I will probably start going back next week depending on what the holiday brings. Getting sober I can usually do (with the help of medication), its just staying sober that is the problem. I am starting to feel better now physically. I havent had a drink since Friday afternoon (21st). I am doing what I said, taking 1mg of the klonopin (taking half of 2mg) when I wake up and so far it seems to be taking a lot of the edge off.. No big cravings, I am able to eat and sleep a little better now. Checking my blood pressure and taking my bp meds as directed. I started the starter dose of paxil last night. However, I havent had anything to stress me out or make me overly anxious over the past couple of days, which has always been a big trigger for me to crave alcohol. So far, so good though. I just hope that I can finally free myself off of the benzos aswell as the alcohol.