Hello, Nuudawn,
I really feel for you. It must be quite the transition for you, but you are brave.
You know, I was thinking about you the other day. I've been going thru a horrible time and just wanted to throw in the towel, and at a restaurant, alone, I thought about ordering wine, then your story of what happened when you were in similar circumstances came to mind, so dear girl, you helped me and I'm still battling away, and hoping for the best.
You're a lovely warm, funny woman, please try and be good to yourself.
Hugs to you.