What do you do for work?
Can you take a few days off?
Read here.
The Stickies/permanent posts over Newcomer and Alcohol section make good reading.
No matter how you feel in the next few days, come here and talk and read.
This will be HARD.
But, once through, your life will be so much better!
Would you check out AA?
Lots of face to face support there too and widely available.