Well I don't know you.
I'm new here.
I've never seen you fail before.
I don't mind that you expressed openly about your feelings..
It actually is helpful for me to read your post, cause I can see that I'm not the only one who's rinsed and repeated time after time.
Believe me, I understand hopelessness and failure. I'm VERY familiar with those two things.
Tomorrow is always a new day.
Thanks for sharing.
Good luck!