I think we all need a break from everything in our lives, whether or not they give us pleasure, are healthy or that simply begin to annoy us. It's when we don't come back from the break that things tend to go sideways.
You've also been here before, and I imagine that is playing a role in your discontent.
The only thing I can't take a break from is staying sober. Everything else is fair game.
Or, maybe you do need to get...