Hi....I really encourage you to search and read up on AVRT. I think it can really help. It will allow you to understand why you approach to quitting has been failing you. Quitting means quitting....ZERO alcohol. EVER. there are no shades of gray here....if you allow your addiction to convince you to drink for any reason (including celebration or reward) then your addiction wins and you go back to square one. Please think about it, take a deep breathe, and quit. And don't go back.