Yes I agree...he seemed so much different when I first met him. This morning he is all loving and kind. If I could get away with spewing out a bunch of profanities I would. Problem is, I'm 32. I'm close to middle life. I'm done with the dysfunction. I'm going to talk to my therapist about talking to me and all the kiddos. I don't know what a saturation point is...but I know I am getting ready to take a stand. I no longer have the nagging voice that says he'll change or get better. I just have anger at this point. I don't want that either, but its better than sympathizing with him. I COULD afford a lawyer to adopt the two kids. My A would agree because we've talked about it before. So I could sneak that past him...and then file. I will look on the internet today on a timeline for that kind of thing. Not sure I can wait too much longer. I hate CPS and would like to avoid them at ALL costs.