So I spoke with my oldest and his oldest ( both daughters) I told them I might have to leave their dad. His daughter got real quiet and asked if she could live with me. I said no because of my legal rights to her. She asked if she could go live with her bio mom then...i had to explain all that too. She's 14 and know bios were terminated but just doesn't understand the legality. She asked me if I could adopt her. Well yes, yes I could. But how long would that take? God my heart is breaking. I'm ALL they have. No grandma no grandpa, uncle is a severe A....he got drunk last night. I just went to bed. I did call the national hotline. I have a safety plan for ALL the kids and me. That feels good. I have to go, I think. I just don't know where to start. Probably get a job first....