Mishelly, a very warm welcome to you.
Congrats for the realization of being an addict. First step to getting your life in order and getting and staying clean.
As Evanna said, I also don't know how long I would be able to continue to say no if I had my DOC in front of me. Don't need the temptation, as sometimes just every day life for an addict with all the emotions is enough temptation in itself.
All the best to you
Diana