Way to go Lily! Isn't it amazing what we can accomplish! Real adults.. LOL
It's very okay for you not to decide. I myself have been in a similar situation.. and then of course question all my decisions. Like the worry wort I am. When he was in jail I actually told him that I didn't want him coming home. Then the begging, and the bargaining... and of course I gave in. He used... went to Teen Challenge, Left early... stayed good for a few months and relapsed again. Like... it's all repeating. Did my choices affect what he's doing? I don't know. Maybe? I kicked him out - AGAIN... but he's still trying to manipulate me into believing everything is going to be OK. LOL. I hate it. The cycle continues. Good luck Lilly...