Yeah,
I agree with whats been said here. If you are on that much Meth. and Benzo's, what kind of life are you looking for. We are not here to explain to you that if you cut down on this and take more of that you will do ok.
"What is our message? That an addict, any addict, can stop using drugs, lose the desire to use, and find a new way to live. Our message is hope and the promise of freedom. When it is said and done, our primary purpose can only be to carry the message to the addict who still suffers because that is all we have to give."
You are asking the very people that have been where you are now, there is nothing that you can do that we haven't done. Give yoursef a break. There is a New Way of life. Don't exclude yourself!!
Todd J.