Welcome Mishelly,
Huge well done for the admission of being an addict. That is the first step to getting well.
My history is similar to yours...started using young.....finally cleaned up in my late 30s. I have been clean a couple of years now yet i am still not convinced i could say no if someone laid my drug of choice down in front of me. Possibly i could say no once or twice but i dont think my resolve would last long. Most of the people i used with were just using aquaintances...one or two were friends and i miss them dearly sometimes. I will not go to them though, no matter how lonely it gets. Recovery can feel real lonely sometimes especially when we are in the transition from one life to another. The only way is to work on new friendships i believe.
Good luck with the meeting.
Warmest wishes
Evanna.
