Hi Dharma, your binges sound like mine. My last binge ended after a few days with me waking up on the bathroom floor covered in my own blood and gaping wound on my scalp that exposed my skull. 30 staples to close it.
I have scar to remind me why I can't pick up that first beer. I recently have told most of my friends that I have a problem. They aren't surprised. They just didn't know how bad it had gotten. I got 10 months. It's lonely. I have no social life and will most likely be spending Christmas alone, but I need to do this. I am building a new sober life and for once thinking about the future.