Had,
Keep your days as simple as possible. It's alright to cry when ever and where you need to. At the very least it will get rid of the inpurities in your eyes.
I bottled up all my emotions for so long that when I started cring I thought I'd never stop. But I did and you will too.
Pain is pain and it doesn't matter how, where, when I got/get it from I need to feel the pain and then walk though it. Yes, it hurts but when time has passed and I can look back on it I realize that one more time my H.P. has done for me what I couldn't do for myself.
Sounds like you could use a hug right now.