I have a suggestion which may or may not help but it is worth a try.
About a month into sobriety I read the book "Alan Carr's Easy way to stop drinking". Honestly it completely took away my urges and positive associations to drinking for several MONTHS. And I'm not the only one who it worked for.
I still felt awful having to face life (you know, the one I was drinking to avoid dealing with) BUT I knew I had to face things a piece at a time because drinking was taken off the table as an option for awhile.