Dear LoveIsPatient
I definitely get everything you are talking about. Last night was my mate's and my 15th anniversary. I was in town for some other events and went by to see him.
He wasn't home and I found out he had left town in his RV for the weekend. Of course, I had to check both RV parks down there to see if he was there...
Last week was his birthday, and he didn't want me around then either. To be honest, with that, last night and the holidays coming, I think it is normal to feel a little crazy.
I am seeing that part of recovery is cutting ourselves a little slack for these rough times. As they say in AlAnon, "progress, not perfection."