BooJudeBoo....first step...you NEED your sleep. Sleep deprivation is a long honored technique for breaking down prisoners!! You can't burn the candle on both ends forever---until you get sick and break down, yourself. You have to keep your health to work full time and take care of a home and little children! Exhaustion messes with your mind, also. It diminishes your ability to manage even ordinary, everyday stress.
Frantically worrying about him doesn't change the outcome, anyway. That is the irony, isn't it...? He still does what he wants to...and you pay the price!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know that it is hard to accept that you can't control him. That, I believe, is the h ardest part of all...
dandylion