Originally Posted by
newhope01 
I am trying not to think about how lonely I feel and how terrified I am about this mysterious illness I seem to have acquired. Its when my mind explores those feelings that I want to run to the liquor store.
I need to stay close tonight though.
NH, I'm glad you're not suicidal, thanks for making that clear. You do seem depressed though, and you don't have to go through that on your own. You never know how the body and mind are going to react to the withdrawal on alcohol and a period of depression would not be unusual. Please consider seeing a doctor, and if he/she suggests antidepressants for a while, it could be just what you need to get you through without resorting to alcohol.