Glad yer here. Yes, getting sober isn't easy. It was the hardest thing I have ever done.it required a lot of fighting off the craving and compulsion to drink.
Staying sober,on the other hand, has been relatively easy.
But it took T.I.M.E. for that to happen.
Did you get any numbers of others at ten meetings? If so, pick up the phone and call. If not, please get some numbers at yer next meeting.
Got a big book( that's the name we call the book titled alcoholics anonymous. It lays out the steps we took to recover from the hopeless state of body and mind)? If so, you might want to start reading it. If not, you. Can do a google search for "big book online" and read it online.
As for yer chip, what you can do is put it under your tongue. When it melts you can have a drink.
Early on it got down to one minute at a time for me and every second of fight was worth it.