I spoke to my pastor too and am reading everything I can get my hands on. I wish I knew exactly what drug(s) he's on other than the cocaine he admitted using once. I suppose knowing won't help me really though. Now my job I suppose is to work on not giving in and not being an enabler like my pastor said. He said he needs to hit rock bottom and to let him fall. I know that's the only way he'll ever help himself. I hope he helps himself.