hey gnarly boots
I get where you at and understand how you feel.
I don't imagine being a tiger in a check shirt is easy, but than again being a symbol of an anarchist society isn't either.
I know mate....I had a year clean and sober and busted....started with codeine due to ongoing physical pain, then the booze came back, ended up smoking the rock with an old junky buddy on Friday night.....big realisation, day 4 again, this time going very slowly and carefully.....
keep posting and let us know how you are fairing, my dreams have been f'd up and haven't left the house much....
we can do this together
v