I don't think I ever really loved my X. I felt a lot of pity for him. I felt protective of him because of all he had been through. I felt the need to take care of him and help him. None of those things are love.
I love our children so I will never regret our being together. I still feel pity for my X, but if he were not the father of my children he is someone I would not have any contact with at all because our morals and values are not the same at all.