I spent a long time trying to cut back and trying to drink like other people. The number of times I set out with the intent to just have a couple... I couldn't even tell you.
At a point I had to realize that I'm simply not wired that way. I can't have one or two, at least not consistently. I have to have more. So, now I have none and I don't miss it.
Weirdly enough, I've been having allergy problems and last night was bad enough to take a Benadryl. Today I am awake but I'm slow and I feel heavy.... A lot like my hangovers felt similar to this and I can say with 100% seriousness that I do not miss drinking or this feeling.
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