Benny - Sorry you aren't finding what you want to here, but what you are hearing is the advice of people who have been in your shoes. You're dealing with a disease of alcoholism and it can kill you.
If you find out you can't do this on your own, we are always here. This is your life you're talking about, and you only get one.
I wish you the best, but like I said - we're always here if your way doesn't work.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy