for what its worth I probably went the first 6 months or so just working on remaining abstinent and keeping my anxiety in check.
It took a while till things started to come together.
One revelation I'm kinda thinking is something like the 12 steps is almost a daily thing not just something you do or did etc...
I have remind myself all over again about a lot of various things just to keep myself happy and calm etc.. Lots of stuff is not just something I did once and now I'm on to the next thing. Its all an ongoing process each day lot of things start all over again for me.